Wasn't feeling that great today. Aching in my butt. It comes and goes like a toothache. Bothers me more when I go to the bathroom a lot. But I don't want to cut down on my food. I'm too thin as it is now. I weighed 165 Lbs. about 6 months ago. Now I'm down below 135. I lost that mostly when I was on soft foods only and having to fast all the time for those darn tests.
I'm craving some stuffing and Pumpkin pie. Darn it. I think I will make some stuffing anyway. The hell with it. No pie though. I like corn meal stuffing. It's the bread and the butter that will be bad for me but maybe for just one day. Hell. I might be dead tomorrow. I could die any time from something else too. Ha! Ha!
Doctor Delpino's nurse called today. She set an appointment up for me to talk to the oncologist. I told her to go ahead and get me an appointment to talk to the Radiologist also. I want to talk to both of them and hear exactly what they will be doing if I decide to go for it. I still really don't want to though, but then my butt starts aching and I think of the pain I might have at the end. I can't take it either way. I could be in pain the rest of my life just from the radiation treatments. It is so scary.
My appointment with the Radiologist is Dec. 1st at 1:30 in Utica and my appointment with the Oncologist isn't till Dec. 17th. Nothing will be done till after the new year anyway. I still want another blood test before I decide. I want to see what my CEA levels are now compared to a couple months ago. If they have gone higher then I'll know it's getting worse. If they are lower then I will feel that my diet is working. Dr. Delpino says I can have the blood test again. No problem.
I am also going to get all my blood work done again with my primary Dr. Just to see if my cholesterol has gone down. I told her I could do it on my own without going on any of those damn Statin drugs. So I just want to prove something to her.
I haven't spotted my crippled fox since the 20th when I got a photo of him at night back by the woods. It gets dark so early now and they only come after dark now. I do open my window and take flash photos of them but he is never in them. I really have to stop worrying so much about him. It's not good for me.
I finally got all my laundry done the other night. I sure feel good about that!!
That's all for now.
1 comment:
I love stuffing too, maybe a little of what you fancy...
I can see that you have really researched everything Ginny and I do hope you make the decision that is right for you...only you can ultimately decide. It does sound like your doctor has given you very good advice though.
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