November 15, 2009-Sunday

I do believe that this is the first day in months that I actually felt pretty good. I haven't had any aching in my bowels at all today!! And no bleeding either!  It's a miracle!! Maybe, just maybe, this alkalizing diet is working!! I won't get my hopes up but I really do believe that it can work. That growth fell off my leg and the red sore veins on my ankle have gone away now too. I'm hoping that I can stop the growth of that tumor so I won't have to have any surgery. But it will take time. I know the doctors don't want to hear that stuff. All they want to do is cut you up and give all the radiation and chemo they can to you. I'm not saying that it hasn't helped people because it has. But most people won't stick to strict diets either. In fact, a lot of people on chemo will eat all kinds of bad stuff just to keep weight on them. I remember seeing that when my sister Chris was down in Cooperstown all the time getting her Chemo and radiation treatments.
All cancers are different in everyone and our bodies react different to that stuff too. I have this fear that I am allergic to the Chemo. I was down in that Chemo room with Chris one time, sitting in the chair next to her while she had her treatment. She was telling me that the nurses have to be real careful not to drip or splash any of that stuff when they are taking the needles out because it's deadly poison if it gets on your skin. Well. Right after I left there that day my elbow broke out with this bump and it got real read and itched. It was some kind of contact dermatitis that I got off that chair. But the real weird thing is, it did not go away for over a year and now and then it will still itch. All I could ever think of was maybe someone got careless throwing the needles in the garbage and some got on the arm of that chair that day. The garbage receptacle was right next to it. That has always haunted me long before I got this problem of my own.
I am going to demand a Chemo Sensitivity test if I ever have to go through that stuff. I still think that I won't be doing any of that poison though.
Enough of that talk. I had a good day and I don't want to think about all that right now.
I saw my poor three-legged fox briefly this afternoon. The poor thing wanted to come  down for his nuts and other food but the people upstairs were right at the window talking loud and he ran back into the woods. I was pissed. They are like a bunch of animals up there. An old guy lives up there and his relatives come to bring him food and they stomp across the floors and make so much noise. Today I put my music on real loud just to drown them out. This was after they scared the fox. I never did see it again. But I did get one photo of him. The poor thing was looking up at a squirrel. He will never climb that tree again or be able to catch a squirrel. I wonder if he will ever be able to hunt for himself again. If not, he will starve to death. They sure can't live on nuts and milk bones and doggie treats like I've been giving them. If I put out meat, the others would probably get it before him. I wish he would come closer so I could feed him better. This is his photo today.