It's over and done with. I told the Oncologist that I am refusing Chemo treatments. She was very nice and said she understands my decision. She said I was correct in all the questions I had. I could very well have all those side effects. She suggested I get a lower dose that would drip 24/7 into my body. I'd have to have a port put into my chest and carry a portable around for five days a week. But I refused that also. I will take my chances. It's my body and whatever the outcome is then I will take it. I am not afraid to die. The radiation will be painful enough. And the surgery afterwards. I don't know how I am going to deal with the pain. Maybe I will become addicted to drugs this late in my life.. Ha! Ha! More pain killers please.....
I left my place at 2:30 this afternoon. It sure was windy and I could feel the car moving a bit. But the roads were clear. It was snowing lightly when I was coming home. Got home at 5:00. Ate some dinner and covered my birds for the night then went back out in the cold to get groceries. The weather is going to be worse all weekend so I wanted to get groceries tonight. Now I don't have to go out till Wednesday when I go for my first radiation treatment. At least I won't be driving. But I bet I won't get to come home too soon. Probably have to wait for other people before they will bring me back. I don't like that part. But it's better than driving myself.
It was so cold out there tonight! Brrrrr!!
Saw one fox outside. The poor thing. I always feel sorry for the animals out there in the cold. I hope they have a nice warm den.
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