My crippled fox showed up and he was right below my living room window! It was dark but with a little light from the next door apartment, I got to see him pretty good. He looks healthy and it seems that he has chewed off those nasty protruding bones that I was so worried about. I was hiding behind my curtains so I wouldn't spook him. I'll probably never get any more photos of him because I have to open the window to do that in the dark. But I don't care. Just as long as I know he's still alive and doing well. He can still run pretty fast, even with three legs. He did get spooked later. He must have seen the curtain move. I watched him run around the rock wall and across the grass area. Maybe in the spring I'll be surprised and he will come out during the day again!
That made my day!!
I haven't been able to go to the bathroom all day. Just bleeding. Took some laxatives and hope by tomorrow I will. It's not a good feeling, having a tumor that is an inch and a half blocking the way.....
I have got to clean myself out by Tuesday morning when I go back to the Radiologist. He will be doing a rectal exam that day. So it will be just liquids and soft foods for tomorrow. I hate all this probing and prodding. And it will only get worse as sugery time gets near. I figure sometime in March. Maybe by June I'll be feeling okay. I sure hope so.
I'm trying to find the best lotion and soap to use while on radiation when my skin will be all burned and raw. And what to use for my mouth sores because I'm sure I'll get them. Almost everyone does by what I've been reading. Going to ask him when I go on Tuesday. Got to get my rides all set up too. When I asked about that last week they weren't sure if there were any available in the valley. But I'll get that all straightened out soon.
It was cold today and it made me think how I'm going to hate going out every single day. I never went out much in the winter. Maybe once every two weeks and that was it. It's too hard to walk in that snow and sometimes the sidewalks are bad here. Makes me nervous. I've got to stop thinking about things like that. My anxiety level rises when I do that. I get panic attacks when I have to go places. But I guess I will just have to get used to going. I can't quit now.
If you go to my "Animal Stories" blog you can see the Christmas pages I made last year in Scrapblog with some of my critters. I'll add the link on here so it can just be clicked on. I really need to add my foxes to that woods scenery.
Take care everyone.
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