Second Thoughts About Surgery

I have been thinking a lot lately and doing a lot of research and reading other people's stories. I am now having second thoughts about surgery. I might not have it. But I'll still be talking to the surgeon on Thursday. If I have the surgery now, I'll be laid up and in in pain even without complications, all through the holidays. And there are so many complications that could happen. But I'll let you know after Thursday what I decide to do. If this cancer has spread then there is no way they can get it all unless I have the radiation and Chemo. And it will never get it all. I might live a few more months with hardly any pain or I might live a few more years. Who the hell knows. Either way it will be in God's hands.