June 2, 2010

I finally got the handicapped toilet put in today after waiting for two months. But it is still too low for me to get off of it so now I will have to buy a different riser with handles or maybe some hand bars that sit over the toilet to push myself up with. I can't pull myself up with the wall bar next to the toilet because it's on the right side and I can't use that hand yet. Not sure if I ever will be able to. It aches a lot.
I continue to have rectal problems and bleeding all the time. Not heavy bleeding like last year but there's always bloody mucus in the mornings. That's all that comes out till later in the morning and then it's still bloody. I have to live with this because I chose to. I know things will be getting worse as time goes by and I'm prepared for it. I know what I have to do when the time comes. I don't know how long I have. it might be a year or two before it gets me. For now I will try to enjoy the days I have left. I might not be able to go many places but I like being home with my critters anyway. I am a loner. Always have been really. Except when forced to deal with the public. Glad those days are over.
It's quite warm today. In the 80's. But rain again tomorrow and cooler they say.
My oldest daughter, Ginny, called me from MN today to thank me for the package. I always send her and the boys some DVD's of the critters and pictures. I sent her a few pairs of shoes too, that I can't wear any more. At least she wears the same size. No one else does. I'm going to send her a couple winter coats too. She never has much so I know she can use them. It gets so much colder up there in Northern MN in the winters.
It's time for the Raccoon to come out so I better go watch for her.