I finally got the new refrigerator on Wednesday. It's almost like the old one but has a little more room in the freezer section I think. But it's a bit taller and now I can't reach the top to dust it. Will have to drag my stool into the kitchen when I do. The guys didn't come till 2:00 so my birds were having a fit being locked in their cages all that time. They got a couple hours out before bedtime. It took the guys a little time to change the doors to the right side. There sure were a lot of nuts and screws to change. Nothing is easy like the old days. At least now I won't have to worry about all my stuff defrosting. I had to throw away all my salmon and shrimp. Didn't dare eat that stuff. Not sure how many times it might have defrosted and refroze. Good thing I hadn't gotten groceries yet.
I went out last night at 7 pm to get my groceries. By the time I got everything inside it was 9 pm and I was so tired. I had taken two Ibuprofen because of my knee hurting. I sure feel it today. The bones are crunching.
I think the cancer is starting to spread now. I'm having more pains in my lower right side. It's not as much on that large lump but all around it. I really haven't felt that area too much but did last night and I can tell it's sore inside. So I guess it's just a matter of time till it gets real bad. Not sure how long I'll be able to go before it starts hurting real bad. I just hope I don't suffer too long and it kills me faster. I'm not looking forward to the pain but I'm not afraid of the dying part.
Now I've really got to get my act together and start getting rid of more stuff around here. It's so hard to clean out closets now. I can't lift my arms and I get so tired. I haven't told any of my family how bad it is yet. Nothing they can do and I don't want them worrying that they might have to do things for me. I'll sign up for some home health aids first. To help me clean and to get some groceries. It's getting harder and harder to go shopping now. Just getting out of my car is such a struggle for me. I keep forgetting to get a board for my seat to lift me up a bit. The pillows just sink. I need something stiff underneath them. I guess I'll have to give up the car soon.
I still haven't heard from my daughter or grandchildren. It's Jordan's 14th birthday on Monday. I am not going to send his card till Tuesday. I don't care if he gets it late. None of them have thanked me for their Christmas gifts. I just can't understand their mother not teaching them to have better manners when it comes to that stuff.
I haven't seen my little red squirrel for the past two days. Now I'm worried about her. That damn big Cooper's Hawk is out there all the time now. Most of the day I never see any birds or squirrels now. That hawk must be living close by now.. I'll stand at the window and look and look for that hawk but I can't spot it. My bird will get on my shoulder and look out too, wondering where all the BlueJays and little birds are. It really seems weird when nothing at all is out there. last evening I spotted that hawk way up high in the tree. Then he flew to another tree. He had a very large wing span so I know it's an adult. They will get the squirrels too. That's why there are no squirrels out there. They run and hide. But that little red one runs along the ground so I sure hope he hasn't gotten caught. especially since it's the first one that's been out there in four years.
I see another chipmunk out there too. But the male one hasn't been seen for two days now. It sure is a tough world out there.
I'm trying not to sit at the computer too long because when I do that lump hurts more in my groin. I'm sort of squishing it when I sit I guess. It's good to get in bed and stretch my legs at night. I'm still getting woken up too early by that woman upstairs though and am not sleeping very well. I don't even get five hours of sleep in one night. I wish I could take a nap during the day but I can't.
I guess that's all for now. Take care everyone. We are going to be having a few days of colder weather and maybe a little snow tomorrow. It sure has been a mild winter.
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