The nurse came this morning and checked me over. Said everything was looking good and healing okay. She looked at the stitches on my butt and said they looked real good. The oozing is normal and should go away soon.
I told her I was doing some research on the metastasized cancer in my liver and that I knew most people only lived a few months after surgery. She said I shouldn't be looking at that stuff but I told her I wanted to know everything there was to know and that I wasn't afraid to die. She said I'm one tough lady..Ha! Ha! Yes I am! Why shouldn't I know everything and the truth about all this. If I only have a few months then I want to know. At least I can be prepared to die. Most people aren't because they die suddenly or just don't believe they are dying. I had thought maybe I'd have another year but now I know I won't so I'm accepting that fact. I know all the symptoms to look for when it starts. I hope I can get Hospice because they can give you more Morphine than the hospitals will. The more Morphine the faster I can die and in less pain. My sister didn't want her Morphine so she suffered at the end. I will take all I can get when that time comes.
I had a good day today though! My daughter and Granddaughter came over later in the afternoon. Nina picked my up a few things and I had asked her to buy me some chocolates so she brought me a nice box of Russell Stovers. Yummy. I ate a few pieces. Tasted so good! I haven't had any candy since way before my surgery. I know it's bad for my liver but I don't care at this stage. I won't overdo it.
Jessi has lost two of her baby teeth. I'm adding the pic of us. Nina loves her new home and so do the kids. Her cats and dog love it too. Salena is bringing her rabbit to Nina's soon too. Nina brought a big cage and it will live in the cellar where it's nice and warm. It's been at Salena's father's house outdoors in a small cage all alone. So now it will be much happier.
Nina said that Jordan has gotten real tall and thinner all of a sudden. Can't wait to see him. Kids grow up so fast.
I'm going to bed early tonight because I never did lie down all day so I'm tired. I think maybe my itching will subside soon. At least I hope so. It's still bad on my right arm and under my boobs on my belly area.
It was a good day!
Thank you God for another day here on earth.
1 comment:
Dear Ginny, I admire you so much, your sheer strength of character and gutsiness shines through so clearly.
Glad you got your chocolate, a little of what you fancy... ;)
Your Granddaughter looks a real sweetheart and that is a beautiful photo.
I hope you got my email, I only mention it because I know you have two addresses and I never know which to use, I used the same one as I sent the E card to the day before you went to hospital. Please don't think I am looking for a reply, I am sure the last thing you want to bother with at the moment is writing emails, I just wanted to be sure it reached you. If you reply on here that you didn't receive it I will send it again to the other address.
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