Me On The Scooter-Video-The Rug

I can't have any throw rugs around as you will see in this video..Ha!

April 29, 2010-Got My Scooter Today

I got my scooter today. The girl showed me everything. How to take it apart and about the battery etc. I read the owner's manual after she left so I would know exactly what to do with it. I have to practice a lot. I have a tendency to push too hard with my thumbs. I bumped into my stool. Ha! Ha!
I do feel safer now that I have it in case something happens to my leg or my back goes out, like it does at times.
It's been a rough week with my rectal tumor aching and not being able to go to the bathroom very well.
My hand still is hurting. My fingers are getting stronger but the wrist itself hurts whenever I use any twisting motion. I'm starting to put the ace bandage in it at night. Seems to hold it in place while I'm sleeping. My fingers ache so bad and in the mornings I can hardly open them. I took one Ibuprofen today. Maybe if I just take one now and then it might help.
My shoulder is still paining me. It cracks all the time. It was starting to get better but now it's hurting in a different spot. I'm just so sick of being uncomfortable and in pain everywhere. But I know I'll be in worse pain as time goes by. from the cancer as it kills me. I'll go on pain meds when that starts
I'm still waiting for my brothers to come and take my bed down so I can get the twin size one set up. I hate bothering Jim. He works so hard and hardly ever gets time. But he will do it when he can.
The maintenance man still has not put my handicap toilet in. Wish he'd hurry up. I'm sick of that commode and it pinching me all the time. It's so cheap. But at least it has helped for a while.
I had to take up my throw rugs. The scooter can't drive over them without rolling them. Throw rugs are not good anyway. Might trip over them. I'm adding this collage so you can see my scooter. I will add videos maybe tomorrow. One shows what happened when I backed up over the throw rug.

April 25, 2010-One Day At A Time Poem

I'm feeling weak. My legs seem real weak. I think that tumor in my rectum is pushing on some nerves that go to my lower body. So afraid of falling. I'm being very careful around the apartment too. When that tumor is bothering me is when I feel the weakness in my legs more. And it's been bothering me more lately.
My fingers are so stiff and my wrist hurts a lot also. I think I should get that hand x-rayed again. The bones in the top of my hand hurt too much.
I forgot to mention that when I went to the doctor's that day with the Scooter woman, my doctor was looking at my records and she asked how my toes were. Remember when I broke my wrist all the toes on my right foot were bent backwards when I fell and they hurt like crazy for a very long time. Well, she said that the little toe had been broken too. They never told me that but I guess it healed okay because it isn't bothering me. Sometimes I wonder if having a cast on so long hurts more than helps when it comes to healing. All those pressure spots where the cast was hurting are still sore to touch.. Too late to worry about that now. I just have to get through one day at a time here.
I found this poem in my papers. I'm adding it here.

ONE DAY AT A TIME
By
Dottlee Duggan Reid


I don't wish to know tomorrow
For the trials of today
Are enough to keep me busy
here on life's pathway

God in all his wisdom
Could so easily see
One day at a time
Was enough for me

No need to be anxious
For what the future holds
God must prepare you
As each day unfolds

So Lord, I trust you
The future is all thine
Just help me to live
One day at a time

April 21, 2010

My wrist doesn't seem to be getting much better. My fingers are still stiff and sore. Guess it will take a long time. My rectal tumor has been aching a lot lately also. I'm just not feeling that great. My shoulder is still hurting but not as bad. The other one hurts too when I'm in bed and have been lying on that side. I feel like I'm getting bursitis is both shoulders or something. Sometimes I just feel like giving up but then when I start to feel a little better I don't. I don't know how some people cope with all their pain. Maybe they have more to live for. At this stage of my life it doesn't seem to matter to me. But I try to keep a smile on my face anyway when I'm around people.
I managed to get to Walmart today. At first I didn't think I'd be able to stop going to the bathroom long enough to go. But by 2:30 pm I did. I wasn't gone long though. I still can't turn my car key or shift the car with the right hand. But at least I can go myself.
Left a message with my brother today so he and my other brother can come sometime and take my queen size bed apart and take it to the dump so I can get my twin size one set up. Then I'll have more room around my bedroom if I need the scooter. Haven't gotten it yet. Not sure how long it takes Medicare to approve it.
Not much to talk about about lately. Just trying to get through one day at a time here. At least I still have my critters to keep me going. The foxes come down every evening. I haven't seen the three legged one though. Hope it's okay.
It's past my bedtime. I'm tired. Take care everyone.

April 15, 2010-Got Groceries Myself Today!

I drove over to Walmart this afternoon and got a lot of groceries. It was very tiring walking around and I felt kind of weak but I did okay. I still can't push too much with my bad hand but I do hold on to the cart. I hate those heavy carts over there. My legs were a little weak today. I think it comes from my tumor. Seems when I'm having more aches in my rectum my legs feel weaker. I have read where rectal tumors can push on nerves to the legs. I sure don't need that!
I can't take my little cart out to the car with me when I go grocery shopping now. I used to fold it up and throw it in the back seat so when I got home I'd just take it out and load the groceries in it to bring in the house. But with my bad hand I have to come inside to get it now and then go back out to get my groceries from the trunk. had to make two trips today because I bought more than usual so I won't have to go again for another two weeks maybe.
When I woke up this morning my fingers were so sore and I could hardly open them. I've never had arthritis but I sure feel like I do now. I think I need to wear some sort of a brace to bed so my hand won't fall in the wrong position. It is so sore around the wrist area. Tonight it's aching like crazy but I won't take anything for it. I'll put up with the pain.
I am so tired. I think I will be in bed by 9 pm tonight. I never sleep well. Wish I could. I drink a cup of Camomile tea at night but it doesn't seem to help me.
I ordered a twin size bed frame and it came already. I need to get rid of this queen size bed of mine so I will have room in my bedroom for the scooter if I need it. For now I am going to use an air mattress on it. It's one of those frames that works as a box spring also. Had to order twin size sheets too. If I don't like the air mattress then I'll get a regular mattress. But I do think the air one will be more comfortable. I am so uncomfortable all the time on the this old one I have, even with three foam pads on it.
I am going to ask my brothers if they will take my mattress and box spring and frame to the dump next week sometime. It will seem funny sleeping on a twin size bed after sleeping on a queen size for over 30 years or longer. Hope I don't fall off the damn thing..Ha! Ha! I do toss and turn a lot.
At least getting rid of that big bed will be one less thing my family will have to worry about when I die. I am slowly getting rid of all the heavy stuff in my apartment. I've been cleaning out my closets too and getting rid of a lot of clothes. I lost so much weight that they don't fit me any more anyway. I gave Debby some the other day. Got some shoes too. Guess they will go to the Salvation Army. I wear size 8 and 8 1/2 wide and everyone seems to have either small feet or large.
I can't type any more. My wrist is killing me. Good night.