October 31, 2010 -It Snowed Today!

It was a funny day. It snowed off and on. It was like little pellets though and then it would turn into rain and then back to snow again. Then the sun would come out. It was very cool tonight so from what I hear, not many kids were out Trick Or Treating. They don't come here so I never have to worry about that. I was hoping my daughter would bring the kids by but she didn't. She did post a few pics of the girls in their costumes so at least I got to see what they looked like.
I had a quiet day. I felt better than I did yesterday. Yesterday I was on the toilet over 50 times I bet. The ache gets bad at times though so I know this cancer is getting worse. I sure hope the operation will help.
I got a little more sleep last night than I have been getting. The aching keeps me awake. But I think I got maybe 5 or 6 hours of sleep instead of the 3 the two nights before. And now I'm going to bed. It's past 9:30.
Take care everyone.

October 29, 2010

I did manage to get to Walmart yesterday and to Aubuchon Hardware for my outdoor critter's food. By the time I left it had already clouded up so I didn't bother taking my camera. Things are pretty bare now so guess I won't be taking any photos. I was slow moving around Walmart. Felt very weak so I bought some Iron . I think I need more. I don't want to get anemic again. And it's better to build up my blood before the operation.
My sister, Jeanne, stopped over today. We had a nice visit. She brought me a few grocery items, like organic creamed soups and a half gallon of Almond Breeze. I always drink that now instead of milk. Never drank much milk anyway. I don't want to put too much dairy in me. I like the Almond Breeze. Tastes pretty good. I get the Vanilla unsweetened kind. I like it on my oatmeal. She gave me a birthday card also with some money. That was so nice of her. I might need the money to put my turtle to sleep. But right now my turtle has decided to take her little siesta. It might last over a month or maybe two. She always sleeps under my chair and will stay there for so long that I always worried about her all those other years but that's what she does every year now and she's healthy. I don't understand how she goes so long without water or food and she never goes to the bathroom. Very odd because I never have found any information about that kind of turtle doing that. I know that sliders hibernate in ponds for the winter but this turtle is from Africa and they can't take the cold. If she stays under that chair like always then I won't worry about her while I'm in the hospital. Maybe she can stay alive for a while longer. It makes me sad to put her to sleep.
Was a very windy, rainy day today. Winter is coming on fast. Not looking forward to it.
That's all for now. Take care everyone.

October 28, 2010

I did finally get out yesterday! Got my driver's license renewed for another eight years. Although I won't be around for those eight years. I asked them about getting rebates if one doesn't live that long and they said they do pay back four years of it and that's all. So that's $36. I guess if my daughter wanted to bother with it she could get that but knowing her she wouldn't. I was just curious about that.
It was a beautiful day yesterday. In the 60's and sunny. I was wishing I had brought my camera with me to take some photos. I drove through the Walmart parking lot but it was so packed and no close spots so I drove back out and came home. Never did go anywhere else.
I wasn't feeling too bad and hadn't taken any stool softeners the day before but every time I don't I am uncomfortable all day because I can't go. But at least I got out.
Today I am going to the bathroom and hoping maybe I can go out again while the sun is still shining. All depends on if I feel like I have to be on the toilet too much. I might be able to get an hour in between going so I can get over to Aubuchon Hardware for some critter food and to Walmart for a few items. It's going to cloud up by late this afternoon and rain is moving in. Looks like this will be our only nice day for the whole weekend.
If I do go out I'm taking my camera this time. Maybe I can still get some photos of the hills and the colors before all the leaves have fallen. They have all fallen in back where the squirrel's nest is. Looks so bare now. And today it's very windy so lots of leaves will be falling.
Holloween is coming. At least I don't have to worry about Trick or Treaters. They aren't allowed in this building. I'll be adding my Halloween Slide Show soon. I made it a few years ago but update it now and then. Actually I have two of them.
Have a nice day everyone.

October 26, 2010

I'm trying to find a Vet that will put my turtle to sleep. No one in the valley will do it so I guess I have to take her to Utica. I'm going to put Jasper to sleep first and then decide on the birds later.
I wanted to go out today but my rectum hurts and I'm on the toilet too much. I have to go to the Motor vehicle and renew my driver's license by Friday. So I'm hoping tomorrow I will be able to go.
Still haven't asked my brother if he will come down and get me on the day of my operation. I'm hoping he will because my daughter can't take that day off. It's her busiest day teaching at college. My sister, Jane will be in Myrtle Beach and my sister, Jeanne's car is too small. I can't get up out of it. But hopefully I'll have everything worked out soon.
It's breaking my heart to have to put my birds to sleep. Especially Ricky, my Cockatiel. He can be such a pain but he's my baby. And I'm the only person he's known. He was a fertile egg when I got him and I watched him hatch out and had to hand feed him at 12 days old because my female was plucking his feathers out. So he's been a spoiled brat ever since. I have had a couple offers to take my birds till I'm well enough. I will think about that.
I got my prescriptions and details of what I have to do before operation day. I have to take Flagyl and Neomycin the day before. That stuff will kill off the bacteria in my system. Hope I don't get a yeast infection from that. I haven't taken antibiotics in over 35 years I don't think. I've read where you should be taking Probiotics up till that week of surgery to help your immune system so I might do that. I was taking them every day but quit a couple months ago.
The prep is the same as what you take for a Colonoscopy. I have to take 4 Ducolax at 2 pm the day before and at 6 pm I have to drink that 64 oz. of Miralax and Gatorade crap. It's the Gatorade I don't like. There's no taste to the Miralax but they want you to use the Gatorade to get the electrolytes. It says I can have breakfast that morning but I won't because I know how long it takes to get out of my system. From noon on it's only clear liquids up till midnight.
I am worried a bit about this invasive type of surgery. There are so many blood vessels and things that could go wrong but I am going to remain positive and hope that it works without damaging the nerves to my legs or something. My legs get weak and shaky now because that tumor is pushing on the nerves.
On the 10th of Nov. I have to be at the Oneida Healthcare for Pre Op testing. I have to be there at 9:30 am so I will have to leave here by 8:30 or earlier. I'll be gone quite a while. After that is done I have to be at Dr. Delpino's office up the street to meet with the Stoma Nurse at 1 pm. So I guess I won't be home till after 3 pm. Ricky will have a fit that day. He won't be getting an egg for breakfast. I don't uncover him till 8:30 as it is. I'll just have time to uncover him before I leave. He will be screeching all day long because I am not letting him out of his cage. That is why I have to put these birds to sleep. He would be making too much noise all that week I'm in the hospital, unless I do let someone take him. The lady upstairs really doesn't want to take care of them now. That's why I have to do this. And I'm not going to let him go where someone smokes or has a dog or cats. Ricky would be traumatized. But what if I don't make it out of the hospital? At least all this would be already taken care of. My daughter won't want to deal with the animals. She doesn't even seem to care that I'm sick or going through all this. She never even calls to ask how I feel. I know she's under a lot of stress right now with waiting for her closing on the house etc. She just doesn't seem to care one way or another about what happens to me. It's sad that no one in our family is close. Strangers seem to care more than family. That's why I don't want to be a burden on any of them and I'd be better off dying. And I'm not feeling sorry for myself. Just facing the truth. I believe in reincarnation and I'm hoping to come back next time with full use of my legs so I can do everything that I couldn't in this life. And maybe have good parents and lots of love around. If I don't come back I hope I am free to float around anywhere I want up there. Ha! Ha!
Got to get off this chair. My butt aches.

Update:
My brother, Rich, will come down when he gets off work at 7 am to pick me up the day I have my operation!! I'm so glad I don't have to worry about that any more. He can just drop me off and go home. He only lives 7 miles from the hospital. He lives in Munnsville. He even volunteered to take my birds while I'm there. Not sure if he could take the noise though...especially when he has to sleep during the day. I'll think about it.

October 23, 2010-Hip Pain

This morning I was in such bad pain that I could hardly get around. That left hip , in the back area, was so painful. I took some Tylenol and by noon it finally started to subside.. I must have strained that muscle the other day when I went to Rome and then shopping. And lifting heavy objects isn't good either. This pain was worse then any of my other problems. I had to use my walker. It's better to keep walking then sitting. I sure am not looking forward to the pain from that operation. I know I'll be miserable for a few weeks but if it helps it will be worth it.
My Cockatiel really irritates me when I feel like this. I want to have him put to sleep. I was seriously thinking about putting all my pets to sleep. I know I have got to do that with my turtle. She's too big now and I am not going to give her to just anyone that doesn't know anything about these kind of turtles. I'd rather have her put to sleep than worry about if she's okay and being treated good. If my birds get to be too much then I will have them put to sleep also.
It's a gloomy day so far. But it's supposed to be partly sunny later. We are going to have a warm up this coming week. Might even hit 70! I have to get out this week and renew my driver's license. I've procrastinated too long and I have to have it done by the 1st of Nov.
That's all for now.

Time Schedule For Surgery And Pre Testing Etc.

I will be having this bottom section all removed including the rectum area. It will be sewn shut permanently.

Here's my schedule for next month.

November 10, 2010:
Pre Administration Testing at Oneida Healthcare. Lab work etc. 9:30 am. Will take about an hour and a half. Then over to Dr. Delpino's office next door to the hospital to talk to Sharon, his nurse about where the 'Stoma" will be coming out of my belly and whatever else she has to tell me about it. And to mark the spot. That's at 1:00 pm. I will drive myself up there that day.

November 15, 2010:
Appointment with my primary doctor, Christina Aranda in Herkimer for an EKG and Pre-Op clearance.

November 21, 2010:
Start taking antibiotics all day and prepping to clean out bowels for surgery the next day.
I will start eating only broths and soft foods about three days before.

November 22, 2010:
Surgery. I have to be at the hospital at 9:30 am. I'm hoping Nina will take me. But if she can't then I'll have to ask Jeanne. Jane will be in Myrtle Beach at that time.

I will be in the hospital for up to a week, depending on how it goes. Maybe my brother, Rich will be able to bring me home that day. He lives near there. I'll worry about that later. Then six weeks of healing and learning to take care of my stoma and bag emptying. I will already know about that stuff before I leave the hospital.
I probably won't feel good till after New years but you never know.
If the cancer has spread to other organs then I can expect to live only another 7 months or so. If it hasn't then maybe more time. Maybe I won't die in my 64th year like I've always thought I would. Time will tell. I turn 64 on November 1st so it can happen any time after that. I'm shooting for 65 now though!

So that is my schedule as of now.

Some information about Colo-rectal Cancer and the stages of it. Last year I was in stage three. I have no idea where I'm at now but I'm not going to worry about that. The main thing is to relieve this ache and pain in my rectum so I can live a bit better for whatever time I might have left. I will not be having any Chemo or Radiation after this surgery. Never!

When rectal cancer has penetrated the rectal wall and spread to a very limited number of nearby lymph nodes, chemotherapy after surgical removal of all visible cancer may lengthen survival time. Also, radiation therapy after surgical removal of visible rectal cancer may help control the growth of any residual tumors, delay a recurrence, and lengthen survival time.

When cancer has spread to lymph nodes far from the colon or rectum, to the lining of the abdominal cavity, or to other organs, the cancer cannot be cured by surgery alone. Survival time is typically only about 7 months. Chemotherapy with fluorouracil
(sometimes also with another drug) may be given after surgery as part of the treatment for colorectal cancer that has spread widely, but the chemotherapy usually has little effect on how long the person survives. The doctor usually discusses end-of-life care with the person, the family, and other health care practitioners . Even when the cancer has spread widely, surgery is sometimes performed to relieve the intestinal obstruction and ease symptoms.



Staging Colon Cancer

* STAGE 0: Cancer is limited to the inner layer (lining) of the large intestine (colon) covering the polyp. More than 95% of people with cancer at this stage survive at least 5 years.
* STAGE 1: Cancer spreads to the space between the inner layer and muscle layer of the large intestine. (This space contains blood vessels, nerves, and lymph vessels.) More than 90% of people with cancer at this stage survive at least 5 years.
* STAGE 2: Cancer invades the muscle layer and outer layer of the colon. About 55 to 85% of people with cancer at this stage survive at least 5 years.
* STAGE 3: Cancer extends through the outer layer of the colon into nearby lymph nodes. About 20 to 55% of people with cancer at this stage survive at least 5 years.
* STAGE 4 : Cancer spreads to other organs, such as the liver, lungs, or ovaries, or to the lining of the abdominal cavity (peritoneum). Fewer than 1% of people with cancer at this stage survive at least 5 years.

Some Information About Colostomies And Joke

A colostomy is performed in order to bypass or remove the lower colon and rectum. The procedure generally involves creating a passage, called a stoma, through the abdominal wall that is connected to the colon. The feces pass through this passage and are eliminated. Patients must learn how to care for the stoma and keep the area sanitary.

A colostomy is usually by its location (for example in the sigmoid area) or by the have one opening (single-barreled), or there may be two loops opening through the skin (double-barreled).

Usually the colostomy is temporary and can be reversed by a second operation after about three to six months. It the rectum and sphincter muscles in the rectum need to be removed, the colostomy is permanent. Permanent colostomies are more common when the cancerous regions are within two to three centimeters of the anus. Fortunately, surgical advances and knowledge of the extent of safe margins are reducing the need for permanent colostomies.


Managing Permanent Colostomies. In cases where the colostomy is permanent, the patient must wear a colostomy pouch, which sticks to the skin using a special glue. Pouches are available as one- or two-piece systems. The one-piece system is simpler, but the two piece system allows replacement of the pouch without removing the tape.

For best results, the pouch should be emptied when about one-third full. It should be replaced one or two times a week, depending on signs of leakage (itching or burning of the skin near the stoma). It is important to stress that the pouches are odor proof.



Laparoscopy is less invasive and may be as effective as the open approach with fewer side effects in selected patients. It is still investigative, however. It is generally used for early colon cancer (for tumors less than 2 centimeters or for well-defined tumors less than 3 centimeters), but it also is being investigated for rectal and advanced colorectal cancers. Laparoscopy employs a few small incisions through which the surgeon passes a fiber optic tube (laparoscope) containing a small camera or tiny instruments. A 2004 study published in the New England Journal of Medicine found that patients who received laparoscopic colectomy had similar rates of surgical complications, cancer recurrence, and survival as those who received traditional open surgery.

October 21, 2010-Consultation With Doctor

I will be having Laparoscopic Surgery. This photo shows how they make incisions.

I will have this much cut off at least. Maybe more. All depends. The rectum will be sewn shut.

I left my apartment at 2 pm today and drove to Rome to my Dr's appointment with Dr. DelPino. Everything went well and he will do the surgery for me. He will take out the tumor along with a section of the large intestine. I will have my rectum closed off permanently and have a colostomy bag. I don't have to go through another Colonoscopy or CT scan. All I have to do is go to his Oneida office to talk with his Ostomy nurse. She will decide where the best spot is to have the Stoma. That's the hole where a section of the large intestine comes through and will attach to a bag. She marks the spot for the doctor. I also have to get an EKG before surgery. That's no problem. My primary doctor will do it right in her office in Herkimer. I figure he will do the surgery sometime early in November. I will be in the hospital in Oneida for at least a week and then it will take six weeks of healing before I should be feeling half way normal and be able to eat anything I want. I know I will be in a lot of pain for a while because of the cutting in the rectum area. He will be removing all Hemorrhoids and sewing it right up. I have known a couple people who just had Hemorrhoid operations and they were in a lot of pain for a while. I'll deal with it. Anything is better than this constant ache in my butt and having a hard time going to the bathroom all the time and worrying about messing myself. I can't wait till this is all over and done with. If I die during surgery then it was meant to be.
Thank heavens for Wanda upstairs from me. She will feed and take care of my birds for me. Or my daughter can stop by at night to cover them. I'm not going to worry about my critters this time. I'm more important right now. They will be okay. The outdoor ones can survive on their own. Wanda will throw out some food each day for them also but they won't be getting fed like I have been. I'm trying to ween them off from my food. Let them go back to the wild and fend for themselves.
Dr. DelPino's nurse will call tomorrow with my appointment. I will know more at that time.
I was back to Herkimer by 5 pm and then went shopping. Got home at 6. I didn't want to come home and eat first because then I'd be on the toilet the rest of the night and I had to get a few things at Walmart and at Aubuchon Hardware for critter food. I was so hungry that I went to BK and got a fish sandwich and ate that when I got home.
My Cockatiel was going nuts when I came in. I guess he thought I had abandoned him. I had to get him in his cage and cover him for the night. He wants to be covered by 6 pm every night. When we change the clocks back it will be 5 when he gets covered. That's just fine with me. I get some peace and quiet after they are covered for the night.
My car drove good all the way. I am so thankful for that! I will have to drive further when I go to see the Ostomy Nurse. That's in Oneida. I'm sure I will be okay. I wish I could drive myself up there for surgery also so I won't have to ask anyone. Not sure if I'd be able to drive home after the week's stay though or if they'd even let me. I'll have to ask. Can't see any difference. I'd be in just as much pain riding in someone else's seat. I just like to do everything alone if I can. My family is always too busy with their lives and I hate bothering any of them. I'll worry about that when the time comes.
So that's all I have to report for now. I'm happy that I'm going to have the surgery.
This little video shows what a colostomy is.

October 20, 2010

Haven't been able to get away from the toilet for the past few days. I have my doctor's appointment in Rome tomorrow. Just consultation to see if I can have surgery to get a permanent colostomy. I ate breakfast this morning but will not eat anything the rest of the day because I don't want to feel like I have to go to the bathroom all day tomorrow. My appointment isn't till 3pm so it will be a long time before I can eat anything again. This is what I have to do when I have to go anywhere. It sucks!
On a good note, it's a beautiful day so far! I love watching the sun come up through the woods in the mornings. I was watching a squirrel adding to it's nest high up in a tree. They sure are scampering all over the place now. So are the Chipmunks. They are so busy loading up food and nesting material for their dens.
I have not spotted the Weasel in a very long time. I'm glad, even though he was cute, because he would be killing all the chipmunks.
So I'm just going to enjoy the sun while it's out and watch the little critters outside my window and take a few photos as usual. Have a nice day everyone.

October 16, 2010-Windy Day

It's been rainy and very windy for a couple days here. The sun is peeking through now and then this afternoon. So many leaves have fallen off the trees . I can see through the woods. Don't like that because that means the hunters will be able to also. But hopefully there won't be any hunters in those woods this year.
Jane took that black cat to the Vet and it turns out to be a male cat that has been neutered, which is a good thing. It has a parasite that comes from rabbits and Jane is giving it medicine every day for ten days. Other than being malnutritioned and having thin hair it seems to be healthy. Except it's been vomiting almost every day but Jane thinks it's from the medications and flea and tick medicine she put on him. Jane says it runs around her back yard and is much stronger now. It stays in the big cage in the garage at night but is free to roam in the fenced in yard all day and it comes right away when called. Jane's cat does not like that cat being out there at all. It hisses at it and jumps on the window trying to get at it. Her older cat doesn't mind at all. She will not be able to bring it in her house if her younger female cat is acting like that. Jane wants to give the black cat a bath as soon as she can. The Vet took a couple ticks off of it also but they were dead.
My leg and hip pain is not bad right now. I can walk without the walker a bit but I still use it so as not to overdo the knee. I've been making soups lately. Today I made cabbage soup. It goes through me better. I haven't been bleeding for a couple days!! That makes me feel better. Got to keep the roughage out of my system I guess. Those tumors bleed so easy. Staying off the blood thinning stuff has helped also I think.
I go to the Dr. on Thursday. I'm anxious to see what happens next.
Meanwhile I've been getting all my paperwork together for my recertification on my renewal here for the apartment. My rent might go down a little this year if they let me claim all the stuff I had to buy for my medical problems. Just have to get my primary doctor to give me a note saying I need the stuff. She did last year with no problem. Insurance don't cover all that stuff.
So that's all for now.

October 14, 2010-Got Out Today

The pain in my left hip and knee subsided enough so that I could get out to the store today. My butt wasn't aching much either. Not till later tonight. Now it's killing me. But at least I got what I needed at the store. It's going to be a very wet weekend. Now I can stay inside where it's nice and dry.
Jane is taking that black cat to the vet tomorrow. To make sure it's okay to be given away. She lets the cat roam around her fenced in yard. It doesn't go far. Jane says the cat hates the litter box though and when she does use it she then goes to her water and washes her paws. That's weird. Maybe it was let out to go to the bathroom. It was vomiting one day after Jane had it. It never did here. Maybe it had to get used to different food. And Jane said it threw up nuts. That's what she ate when I first saw her. Sure took her a long time to get rid of them. Jane found a tick on it's neck also and put medicine on it to kill it. She also put flea repellent on it. That could have made her sick. Who knows. But she's okay now. At least we will find out if it's healthy or not after the vet visit. That's going to cost Jane some money. She didn't have to do that but she always does with stray cats. I sure can't afford that. Lucky cat is all I can say.
That's all for now. Take care everyone.
Oh! Saw five of my foxes last evening!! I thought trapping season started tomorrow but not till the 25th. So I won't worry till then. One of the pups is so cute. The face is adorable.

October 11, 2010-The Stray Cat Has Been Rescued

I'm having a tough few days with my hip in pain and my left knee. I haven't been able to walk around my apartment without my walker. It started last week. The knee hurts because of the way I walk and that left foot drops so much that it causes my knee to bow out. I try to keep the lift inserts in that shoe properly but sometimes it just is too much and nothing I do eases the pain in that knee. On top of that I wake up with one hip or the other in real bad pain. That usually subsides after I get up and have been walking for a awhile.
Today I'm in agony with rectum pain also. I wish there was something else I could take besides Tylenol but I hate to get a subscription for anything yet because it comes and goes. I haven't had a good bowel movement in over a week so this morning I took two Ducolax. It's working a bit because I'm on the toilet constantly, which probably is why my butt hurts. It's very hard to sit still. I hope no one comes to my house or wants to today because I cannot tolerate seeing anyone when I'm feeling this way. I should put a note on the outside of my door also when I feel like this so these old ladies don't ring my doorbell. But I'm hoping this will subside soon. It's 1:00 pm now. I took some Tylenol about an hour ago. It does not work like the Ibuprofen did. If I have to I will take some of that. I just will be careful how many I take so I don't bleed a lot. But I can't mix the two. So I won't be taking any today now that I got that damn Tylenol in my system.

My sister, Jane, came over and took the stray cat yesterday. It didn't mind at all being picked up but did hesitate going into the carrier at first but then settled down. Jane put it in a large cage in her garage for now till she can get it into the vet for a check-up. This morning she called and said the cat likes being in that large cage and doesn't seem to want to come out at all. Jane said it sure does eat a lot. But I know that. I was feeding it quite a bit three times a day and also gave it a bowl of dry food to nibble on. But it was acting a lot better yesterday. Sunned itself on the rock wall and went over near the taller grass to go to the bathroom and was cleaning itself. Quite a difference from the first day she was here. It was only four days but just having water and food makes big difference. I was so worried about her being out there at night though. One of the young foxes tried to go after it and I was afraid a skunk would spray it at night, since it laid under my bedroom window by the water dish. The skunks always would come over to drink water. Something did carry off her food dish. I couldn't find it at all yesterday morning. The at 5 am yesterday morning there was a great big cat growling at it. I had to open the window and scare it away. Never got any more sleep and wasn't sleeping good anyway, worrying about that cat. So now I feel so much better knowing it will eventually find a good home. My sister fosters cats at times so she's always prepared to take one in. She doesn't have to take it to the vet but she always does when she gets a stray and pays for it herself. She's even paying to have my nephew's kittens fixed so there won't be any baby ones in the future. I am so thankful that she took this cat. I felt so sorry for it. I'm adding a pic of it here. Now I have to get off this chair and try to get comfortable.

October 8, 2010-Blood Test Results

I forgot to mention in the last post that I got my blood test results in the mail the other day. My Cholesterol is still high but it has always been so I'm not worried about that. I won't take any of those Statin drugs and have my legs feel weaker. I'm weak enough. My Hemoglobin is low but not that much. It's 11.0. The bottom line for that is 11.8. And my MCHC is low also. That's in the same category. 31.2 and the bottom line is 32.0 so I'm not that much off to worry about anything. My Creatinine, Serum is low also at 0.31 and the bottom line on that is supposed to be at least 0.50. That might have to do with my muscles though. I don't have good muscle on any of my body. The Carbon Dioxide is high at 33. Shouldn't be over 32. Not enough to worry about. That's probably because I don't breathe right or take deep breaths. Can also be caused from taking laxatives, which I do.
Everything else is within the normal range.
Now for the CEA levels that are markers for cancer spreading. Last year my numbers were between 5 and 6. Normal is supposed to be 0-3.0 for non-smokers. Well. Mine has gone up to 28.6 now. So I guess the cancer is spreading but that's to be expected. I won't know anything else till I go to the doctor's on the 21st and he lets me know what my options are for the Colostomy.
I haven't been feeling that well. I feel as if things are changing for the worse. Am too achy to even go out and my legs hurt a lot. But I get by one day at a time. If I do need something at the store my daughter will get it for me or my sister, Jeanne.
The rain has finally stopped and we are having a beautiful weekend for a change. It was 70 today but will be cooler the rest of the weekend. Nice, clear, blue skies though!!
Oh! I have a stray black cat that showed up yesterday. I saw it out there eating the nuts and it is so skinny. I can see it's bones. Someone must have dropped it off and it wandered over here. It won't go away and slept under my bedroom window all night and was right there meeowing at me when I went to feed the squirrels this morning. So I made extra scrambled eggs and gave her some. I put fresh water out there also and she drinks a lot of that. Poor thing. If she's still here on Monday I will call the Humane Society to see what I can do. I know they really don't want to be bothered but maybe someone will come and get it. I can tell it was used to being inside. It wants to come in all the time. My bird is petrified that I have a cat that close and I'm talking to it..Ha! Ha! He will just have to get over it. It doesn't even care if the foxes are out there or the skunks. I was afraid the skunks would spray it. I hope not. It's always something around here.. At least it keeps my mind off other things.
Got to go. Getting tired of sitting here and I ache in my rectum. Tylenol just does not do any good at all. I really need the Ibuprofen because it cuts the inflamation. Tylenol is just for pain and fever.
Take care everyone.

October 6, 2010

I haven't been feeling very well for the past week. Bowel problems and not being able to go and all that crap. It was hard to get out but I finally did on Monday. I was to the store and back within an hour. It's so scary to go out. But I'll cope with anything that comes along at this stage. I called the doctor's office and told them to mail my blood test results because I haven't been able to get there and I could care less about bringing a urine sample now. So they said they'd mail them.
I have to renew my driver's license in person sometime this month so hoping I'll have a good day to do that. It costs $64 for an 8 year license. Wonder if they'd send back the balance if you only use one year?? Ha! Bet not!
My brother, Steve and his daughter, Alysha stopped by yesterday. They seem to be doing okay. They are having a little memorial for Patty at Steve's house so they can throw some of her ashes over the garden that she loved. Then they are having a camp fire after. Immediate family and friends only and it would be a good idea to bring your own chairs. They don't have much and are as poor as Church mice right now. Alysha will be driving up to NH soon to start a new life and hopefully find a good job. She will be living with her friends up there. A married couple. Alysha has been friends with the girl through their school days.
My brother, Steve is trying to sell his house and is getting rid of everything and going to move up to Vermont with my younger brother, Mike. I hope they both do well.