May 29, 2010-Nina Stopped By

My shoulder pain is a lot better now, which makes it easier to do things around the apartment. My hand situation hasn't changed much though. Guess maybe it never will. As long as life goes on every day I'm okay with it.
Nina and Salena stopped by yesterday. Nina picked up my Salvation Army stuff to drop off. And she took two boxes of her old books that she had stored here. Next time she comes I'm giving her quite a few of my winter jackets that I'll never wear again. They are way too large for me now. Some are brand new. Will see if she wants some of my good dress clothes also. If not, they will go to the salvation Army too.
My closets are finally getting bare!! The more I get rid of now the less Nina will have to deal with when I pass on to that other dimension. I want everything in order at that time. After seeing what we had to deal with my sister, Christine's, stuff, I will never put my family through that!
Nina hasn't gotten any confirmation of her teaching position yet. She wants the Herkimer County Community College job instead of Mohawk Valley Community College. Hope they confirm that soon so she won't be getting stressed over it and can give her notice to the State. She will be quitting her auditing job there. Right now they have her working way up in Fulton, NY. It's an 11 hour day by the time she drives up and back each day.
Nina has three more weeks till she's done with her CPA class for this semester . Things are looking better for her these days anyway. I am so happy for her. She might even be buying the house that she is renting right now in Frankfort. She has been approved for a VA loan. Now she's just getting the owner to set a price for it that she can handle. He did have it listed for $169,000 but now is coming down. I hope she gets it. She won't ever have to move again. Unless she wants a different home in the future.
Hope you all have a nice weekend. Hope it doesn't rain on any of your parades. Take care.

May 25, 2010

My sister, Jeanne, stopped over today. She brought me a couple solar powered lights to put out in the yard to maybe see the animals at night better. I had her put one by my living room windows and one near the bedroom window. That was nice of her!! We chatted for a couple hours. Her little granddaughter fell off the back porch the other day and hurt her face but she's okay, thank heavens. Guess her daddy will fix that porch now!
My sister, Debby's back went out on her. She went to urgent care to get some pain pills Monday.
My butt is hurting tonight. I couldn't go to the bathroom all day yesterday but today I did so it's taken a beating. I'm taking two Ibuprofen in the morning and two at night now.
I ordered "Boswellia" for anti inflamatory and hope that might help instead of the Ibuprofen but it will take a while to kick in. I have to take that three times a day. If it doesn't help then I'll stick with the Ibuprofen, even if it causes me to bleed. I'm bleeding lightly. Not anything heavy like I was last Sept.
My hand aches a lot and my fingers. Wish that would get better. The joints in my fingers hurt all the time like arthritis. Around the wrist area it still stings. Guess I'll never be without some kind of pain now till the day I finally die and am free of this body.
That's all for now. Take care everyone.

May 20, 2010

Taking Ibuprofen every day now for my rectal pain. It helps. I felt pretty good today for the first time in days. I'm not having pain too much anywhere else in my stomach area so hopefully the cancer hasn't spread too far yet. Since the doctor said it had already invaded the walls I expect it to start moving elsewhere one of these days. But I hope that won't happen for a long time. I hate all the bowel problems though. It's been two years now since I started having problems. But of course I never went to a doctor back then. Get those colonoscopies everyone! If I had gotten one three years ago the Polyp would have been removed and I wouldn't have had all these problems. It's too late for me but maybe someone else will avoid this kind of thing by going to the doctor and getting a Colonoscopy.
My shoulder pain is lessening each day but it stops me from doing as much as I'd like. My hand hurts by the end of the day. It really hurt last night because I had gone to Walmart and pushed that heavy cart around. It wasn't pushing smoothly and kept going to the left so my right hand was worked more than usual trying to get it to roll straight. I've always hated those carts at Walmart. They are way too heavy.
I've had a lot of neck pain lately also but I think that stems from the right arm and shoulder.
I'm using my mouse on the right side now for the first time. My hand gets tired fast though. I can always switch back to my left hand. I got so used to using it that I'm good at it now. Ha!
I'm still waiting to see some baby foxes. Maybe in a couple more weeks. The parents are coming down a lot now. When they did that last year it wasn't long before the babies came down with them.
The Raccoon is making his nightly visits now. He stands up against the building and can practically look in my bedroom window. I hope he doesn't destroy anything. Yikes! But he's so cute.
I'll write again in a few days or if I have something to say sooner. Take care everyone.

May 17, 2010

I did get out to get groceries on Saturday. Not till afternoon though when I thought I'd stay off the toilet long enough. It was a beautiful day and the air felt good. Ran into my sister, Jane and her husband on my way out. I haven't seen her husband, Savey, in almost two years it seems. I got home just in time. The bathroom was calling me. It's getting scary to go out any more.
I am still not feeling that well. Today I actually felt a little sick but it went away and by evening I felt lots better. I'm taking Ibuprofen no matter if it makes me bleed or not. At least it helps with the pain in my butt.
The weather has been real nice. Getting warmer this week. I will try to get outside more. I haven't gone out with the scooter yet. I just use the walker. It's better for me to walk as much as I can. The women got their hanging plants out front now. It's starting to look nice out there. A few years back I had a hanging plant outside my window and even had a flower garden along that rock wall for a couple years. I'd always climb out my window to put everything out there. But then they tore up the yard out there and it looks like hell. But I can't climb out there any more. Too weak. I climbed out the window because it was easier than try to walk all around the building. I never could walk on grass very well. Even with crutches. We don't have back doors here.
I'm not sticking to my diet much any more either. I'm eating sweets again. I don't care. I still drink my green powder every morning and take all my anti fungus supplements. I still keep my gall stones at bay by putting olive oil in my green powder and on everything I eat. I don't want that pain on top of everything else.
My wrist is never going to heal it seems. My hand seems to be stiffer. My fingers always feel swollen. But I can lift things now and hold a full cup of tea. Couldn't do that a week ago. But sometimes it feels like it gets weak all over again and I have to be careful. My wrist hurts yet and it doesn't bend down at all. it bends up a little but the downward motion hurts where the bone was broke and didn't set right.. I still can't turn the car key . It hurts too much. I've been thinking seriously about giving up my car in August. I can't afford to fix it. I only drove it 350 miles all last year so what the heck should I keep it for? Mostly for a little Independence so I don't have to ask someone to take me to the store. I have to wait when I feel I can go. I can't plan on anything ahead of time because I never know how I'm going to feel from one minute till the next. I guess I'll worry about that when August gets here.
It's ten o"clock and I better get to bed. I never get enough sleep. It's not because of my new bed though. That is comfortable. I've always had a hard time sleeping for years. I sleep very lightly.
I can't think of anything to write about anyway.
Take care everyone.

May 14, 2010-Not feeling That Well

I haven't been feeling that great this past week. My bowels aren't moving as well as I'd like and that tumor is aching a lot more. I just hope it doesn't block my lower bowel so much that I have to go to the doctor's again.I don't want to deal with any more doctors.
My hand is still hurting and my fingers feel like they are broke sometimes. Especially when I use them a lot. The pain in my shoulder still stops me from doing as much as I'd like but I force it every day. I'm trying to push on that hand when I get up. Not hard. But it seems it's not ready because then my hand hurts all night. I'm managing the best I can.
I did manage to move my computer desk to a different spot in my bedroom. It has wheels so it pushed pretty easy. I want lots of room in case an ambulance has to get a gurney in there someday. I got up on my step stool too and changed my curtains. But I had to push a little with my bad hand. Guess that is why it hurts more today. I did all this yesterday.
I wanted to go get groceries but I couldn't because of having to be on the toilet all day. If I don't feel better I guess my daughter will have to go for me again. But I never know how I'm going to feel each day.
Right now I'm tired and my butt hurts and I'm going to bed.

Mother's Day Visitors

My daughter came over to visit yesterday with my two Granddaughters. My Grandson didn't come. He had to go with his father. We had a nice little visit. The girls got to observe one of the Gray foxes too. They were all excited..
I got another surprise yesterday also. My turtle of 15 years laid an egg!! never in all these years has it done that! So now I have to change the name from jasper to jasmine I guess. All this time I thought it was a male. This morning there were two more eggs lying in the water. Now I'm worried that she will become sick if the eggs can't come out. These eggs look as if they are old. I cut the one in half yesterday and it was solid inside. Not a yolk like it should be. Online it says they can lay from 6 and up!! And they need sand. But I am not making her a nest just so she can lay eggs. I have let her out of the water today and she's walking around. I figure she needs more exercise now and if there are other eggs in there they might come out easier. Just what I needed! More things to worry about..Ha! Ha!

Happy Mother's Day!

Just want to wish you all a Happy Mom's Day! The women of course..Ha! I really have missed not having a mother to talk to all these years. But I know she was watching over us all along the way.

May 6, 2010

Seems I feel okay for one day and then the next I don't. It's my cancer that bothers me and keeps me from doing things. My shoulder bothers me still but I can deal with that and my hand still doesn't work right. My fingers are getting stronger though. Just can't use that hand in any twisting motions. I can't make a tight fist yet either. The fingers still hurt real bad in the mornings. Other than all these irritations I am doing okay.
I've gone out twice this week. Monday and Wednesday. Those are the days I felt better. I try to turn my car key but still can't without it hurting so am still using my left hand to do that and shift.
My muffler is starting to go now on the car. I hope I feel good enough to take it in the shop and wait for them to put a new one on. It's one of those guaranteed ones so it won't cost me anything much for it. Just labor. That seems to go every two years. I got the pipes last time so shouldn't need any. I'm still debating if I should just give up having a car. I know it won't pass inspection unless I can get someone in the family to look at the wiring. Maybe it just is grounding out somewhere to make those signal fuses blow all the time. And I don't have any back up lights now either. I don't dare go out at night even though my lights are working for the moment.
I'm still not sleeping too well on the new mattress. I put that foam thing on but the it's one of those egg crate things and the little bumps were bothering me. I turned it over this morning to the flat side and will see how that works. At least I haven't fallen off..Ha! Ha!
It stormed during the night. I like the lightening. Then it cleared up today and was nice, but cooler and real windy. I didn't go out of my apartment though. I was aching too much. I don't like the fact that I'm bleeding every day. Not a lot but enough. So I started taking my herbal iron again even though it feeds fungus. But I don't want to get weak and anemic again. Still trying to do the baking soda enema at least every other day. I don't think I'm doing enough though to really wash that tumor. Guess in the end it will still get me anyway. Just a matter of when and how long I have.
I've only seen the one baby squirrel every day. Haven't seen the other one again. He probably has gotten killed already. I enjoy watching him. He's so cute.
Watching the foxes every evening also.
Not much to report so I'll sign off. I'm getting tired of typing and sitting here. Take care everyone.

May 3, 2010-Sleeping On A Twin Bed

Well, I didn't sleep that well last night. I was nervous about falling off the bed and the baffle bumps in that air mattress didn't feel so great against my sensitive legs. So this morning I added the two inch memory foam that my brother cut down to fit. I had it underneath the air mattress so it wouldn't cut into the metal frame. I put that on top of the air mattress now so will see how I sleep tonight. To protect the mattress from the frame I folded one of my queen size comforters and put that under it. The bed feels much better when I sit on it now. Just hope I can sleep on it.....without worrying about falling off. Can you imagine if I fell off?!! Yikes!! I can't get up at all and I'd have to call 911 to come pick me up. And I sleep naked!!! Ha! Ha! I'm not even going to think about that. I will think positive. I do keep pajamas by the bed so I could always reach up and get them...
I went over to Walmart this evening and got groceries. I felt pretty good so thought I'd better go. Most of the time I'm not feeling good. It was a beautiful night! The air cleared up and the humidity went away and it was about 70 degrees at 7 pm.
It was a good day. :)
Take care everyone.

May 2, 2010-Finally Got My Big Bed Out Of Here

I gave the headboard to my sister, Debby. She's never had one. I've never been without one but will not have one on the twin bed. I used my queen sheets and comforter on the smaller bed. They fit okay. I like it hanging over the sides longer. I just tucked the sheets under the mattress. I always use those T-Shirt style sheets anyway. I bought a new twin set but haven't washed them yet. This shows my queen mattresses just before the boys took it away. I think they took the set to the Salvation Army. It was in good shape. Not a stain on it. I wanted them to take it to the dump but my brother Steve insisted that someone could use it. Along with the frame. That square thing you see on my end table is my air purifier. I have to have it because there was mold inside the walls in that area. The landlord took a piece of the wall out and cleaned it up but I know they never got it all. So the air purifier helps a lot. It's an "Alen". Good brand.

My brothers came today and took my queen bed down and set up the twin frame for me. Got much more room around the bedroom now in case I need the scooter. For now I have an air mattress on the frame. I will try it out and if I don't like it then I will get a regular mattress. I don't like the memory foam so will never get one of those. It seems real comfortable but sleeping in it for the night will tell the story. I sure hope I don't fall off the thing. I am so used to having a big mattress all my life. This will be the first twin size I've ever slept on since I was a kid.
I was real weak after moving stuff around today and cleaning. I felt like I might faint. So I finally sat down and rested after I had the bed made. I just can't seem to do much any more. My shoulders are killing me now. Just when they start to feel better I go and injure them again. Especially the right side. That hand is hurting also. Guess I'm trying to do too much too soon with it.
Now I hope the maintenance man gets my handicapped toilet put in. Sure is taking him a long time. I'm sick of that commode. It pinches my legs at times.