Saturday, October 31, 2009

October 31, 2009


I felt better today. I had a slight back (hip) pain when I got up but it went away. The pain in my Gallbladder area was gone too, thank heavens.
It was real warm this morning but very windy. I went out to get critter food and a few items at Walmart. But all afternoon it rained and into the evening. I think it stopped or slowed when it was time for the kids to go trick or treating.. Kids will go in the rain, sleet or snow. We never cared what the weather was like when we were kids. Out we'd go to find the best spots for candy. Ha! I remember my brother Steve would go across town and keep going till he had a shopping bag full of stuff. After everyone came home,they'd all dump everything out and see what they got and start trading each other. It was always a fun time.
I'm a little uncomfortable tonight but not like last night.
Tomorrow is my 63rd birthday. I wonder if I'll make it to my 64th? I always had a feeling I'd die at 64. But I think that is because my paternal grandmother died at 64 and so did my father and they were both the oldest in their families. And I am the oldest in mine. I made it another year anyway!

Friday, October 30, 2009

October 30, 2009-Not Feeling That well

I have had aching all day in my rectum and bleeding quite a bit. Guess I'm eating too much maybe. It's all raw veggies but put through the food processor. But something is irritating that spot. I also have pain in my upper right rib cage. Might be my Gallbladder again. I sure hope not. I also couldn't walk because of a wicked back ache. So it wasn't a good day for me. I can't sit comfortable at all. So I'm going to bed and listen to the radio.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

October 29, 2009-Consultation With Surgeon


The back of Rick's house

The front

Rick

Me and Rick

I'm glad I talked to that doctor. He explained about the radiation and chemo. I would have to have the radiation at least six weeks before the surgery. That gives me time to heal from it. And I'd have to have the chemo also. He says that the chemo they use does not make your hair fall out. But I wasn't worried about my hair. I'm more concerned about the other tissues and organs it hurts.
Anyway, I have an appointment next Wednesday for another scope and Ultra Sound. That way he will know exactly where it is and what size it is then he will have another talk with me about it.
The good news is it has not gone to my liver. He says I really should get at it now because mine is curable. But he also says that they have to do chemo for 6 months afterwards to make sure all the cancer cells have died. I don't like that part. Six months of chemo is way too long.
He also suggested I talk to some of his survivors so I won't be so afraid of it.
Here I go again. Got to get knocked out for him to get the scope up in me. But at least it's only a few inches long with the Ultra Sound thing on the end of it. He said that the Oneida Hospital is the only one in the whole area with one of those instruments and that he is the one that made them buy it.
He's really very nice and takes the time to talk. But as I was there he got a call and had to be leaving to go back to the Or to repair a lady who had been perforated. Then they were telling me about a 47 year old women who he opened up and found that the cancer was in a lot of her organs. That is scary also. They don't know till they open you up and then it's too late. It's mass chemo then.

I had to wait till 3 pm to go today. His office called and he was still in OR so that meant I didn't have much time to spend with Rick. I got out of there at 4:05 and then had to find Rick's place. He doesn't have a driveway from the front. I had to find the alley that goes behind all those houses. In Rome it's like that a lot. But I found it and he was outside by his garage. He took me into his beautiful old historical house. He had redid the kitchen. What a beautiful job he always does on his houses. I couldn't go upstairs because of my legs but I took a quick tour of the downstairs and took some quick pictures and then I had to get going so he could get ready for work. He had to be at the base at 5 pm. I bet he was a few minutes late though.
I'm hoping that next Wednesday I can get Jane to take me and maybe afterwards we can drive down to Rick's new house so I can see it. I hope I'm not groggy or anything.
I'm adding a few pictures of Rick's place and one of him and I that I took quick in the corner of his kitchen. Had to lay the camera on his counter.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

October 28, 2009

I felt pretty good today! And it sure seems great to be able to eat my veggies chopped in the food processor instead of juice. Tastes so much better!! And I'm eating avocados now!! Yum, yum!
I feel some slight ache tonight but not too bad.
I can't wait to get this Dr. appointment over with tomorrow.
I'm meeting my little brother, Rick, after I get out. He only lives a block away from there in Rome. He has to be to work at the base at 5 pm. I should be done by 3:00, I hope. My appointment is at 2:15.
My cousin, Gloria, came over to visit tonight. I'm glad. We had a nice visit and I had some photos for her from this summer.
I'm going to bed early. I don't sleep very well these days.
I'll have an update tomorrow night on what this Dr. says.
Take care everyone.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

October 27, 2009

I don't think I can take this juicing any longer. So I will still juice but stick to the high alkalizing foods, which are still green veggies and raw but at least I can mix them with small amounts of other stuff. Yesterday the juice was almost gagging me and getting harder and harder to get down. I will still have to put the veggies into the food chopper to get them into the smallest pieces I can so as not to irritate my intestines.
I am bleeding today also. I had a couple days that I didn't bleed much but then I'm not going much either because of the juice. I sure don't want to get totally blocked. I do worry about that since the tumor is so large in there. Some people have to have stints put in. Not sure if that is how it's spelled.
I've been reading so much about all this stuff and other's stories. Lots of this kind of cancer always comes back, especially if it is already in the lymph nodes or liver. They can never get it all. My CEA level is too high also, which indicates it has gone elsewhere. Normal levels are around 6 from what I read. Mine is 12.5.
I am just going to enjoy each day and watch all my critters. I saw three of the foxes down in my yard last night after dark. I really think they are going to stay close for the winter.
I saw an Opossum out there too but he ran too fast when I tried to open the window to get a shot at him. First one I've seen in a long time. He looked to be a younger one. If I keep watching I'll get a photo of him soon. They have to get used to me.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

October 25, 2009-Day 5 Of Juicing


I felt much better this morning. I think I just need to drink more juice. I got my Ph drops in the mail yesterday so now I can add that to my water each day to get my PH level higher. It's still not up there where it belongs.
I'm all out of beets and low on carrots and broccoli again. Guess I got to make another run to the store. This is the part that is going to be hard. Getting out all the time to buy my organic veggies. As long as the snow stays away for the next month. I have a real hard time in the snow. Can't walk and always afraid of falling. If I fall I can't get up. But at least I have my cell phone now. I can't believe the battery in that thing runs down so fast and I am not even using it. I heard this beep noise in the middle of the night and that is what it was. That darn phone. I had to go in the living room and get it and plug it in again. Now I know why the parakeets were fluttering in their cage in the middle of the night. That phone scared them.
I wish I could find a good home for my Cockatiel, Ricky. But he's so spoiled I'm afraid no one could stand him. He is too noisy and bites. He doesn't like fingers coming at him. When he wants attention he will come to you. You can't force him. But he can be lovable. Just on his terms. I did snip his wings but left one primary on both sides. So he still can fly but just not as high and as far at a time. He tires fast. If I give him away I will cut his wings right down to where he can't fly at all. Then he will be more docile and can be picked up easier. It's when he flies over your head that he becomes the boss. The little brat! Ha!
I took these pictures yesterday of him on my shoulder and wanting attention. He wants his face scratched and rubbed. Pumpkin used to do it. They would clean and preen each other's faces. He misses that. So now I have to do it.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Oct. 24th-Update

I finally started feeling better at 10:00 AM. I sure hope I don't go through that every morning. It's a terrible feeling. I think I need to drink more juice than I have been.
I'm still researching and reading online about all this stuff. Ordered some natural plant based iron too. I am not taking any iron tablets at the moment. I should be getting enough from the juice but just in case I'm not, I felt like I should order some. I ordered it from Dr. Foster's site. She has a lot of good info on there and she interacts with everyone.
Now I better go juice some more....:)

October 24, 2009-AM

I'm not feeling very well this morning. I feel like I'm going to faint and am shaky. I know it's from lack of real food. Low blood sugar maybe. I don't know if I will be able to stay on this juicing program if I continue to feel like this. I drank my juice and am hoping this feeling will pass. I feel like I have to lie down so I won't faint. I know what fainting feels like. I fainted all through my school years. And when I was pregnant for my kids.
My birds are waiting for me to take care of them. But they will have to wait.
I'll be back later.

Friday, October 23, 2009

October 23, 2009

I'm looking into getting a newer juicer that can juice wheat grasses and leafy veggies better. Mine doesn't do that good. I think the one I want to get is the Omega 8004. They have a newer one out but it is identical to the 8004. I watched a Youtube video on them. But they are expensive. The 8004 is $259 and the 8006 is $299. But they are fully guaranteed for 15 years!! The best guarantee of all the juicers out there. Then I want to start sprouting my own seeds again. I did that five years ago also when I went on that alkalizing diet. There's nothing like the taste of fresh grown sprouts!! I used to make my own Hummus back then too. Guess I should have stayed on that. I'd be real healthy today...
I have some aching in my rectum today. Only after I go to the bathroom. It goes away after a while.
I guess if this juicing doesn't work then I will have to go through the surgery but I'm sure going to give this a try first.
The sun has come out but it's only in the low 40's today. Quite a difference from yesterday when it was in the 60's. I might go out this afternoon and get more carrots and beets. Can't run out of that stuff.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

October 22, 2009-Day Two Juicing

I felt a little weak this morning. But after I made the juice and drank it I felt good and did for the rest of the day. This juicing is a bit of a pain but worth it. I have to drag all the veggies out and clean them off and cut them to the size that will fit through the juicer. I keep juicing till I get about 10 ounces. I can't make more ahead because it loses it's enzymes after a while. You have to make it fresh each time. Then it's cleaning up and throwing away all that nice pulp that I would have used for a soup. Such a waste. I drink that every three to four hours. I am also drinking the Phsyllium Husk powder with water so I have some roughage. But I drink that an hour before I drink more juice so it won't interfere with the digestion of the enzymes and nutrients. I am also concerned for my Gall Bladder and the stone. If I don't have any oils at all I might get another attack. So I am putting a little Flax seed oil in the Physillum water and drinking that. I never knew a body needed at least 10 % fat with each meal to make the Gall Bladder work right. That's why when people go on no-fat diets they get worse. The fat lets the bile duct open up to drip into the intestines to help digest the food. People who have their Gall Bladdrs out end up with a constant 24 hour drip of bile into their intestines, which can cause problems down the road if they don't eat right I guess. I'm not sure about the particulars on that subject. Lots of people have had their Gall Bladders out and seem fine. But I want mine to stay put! Ha!
I stopped using the Fiber stuff that I bought at Walmart because that had Sucrose in it. Cancer cells love sugar. I order plain Phsyllium Husk Powder online and now use that. I am still waiting for my PH drops to come to alkalize my water. My body has always been too acidic so the drops will help.
When I went on my alkalizing diet five years ago I never felt so good. All my red spots on my ankle went away and little growths that were on my leg went away. I have a growth on my right lower leg right now and I am watching that as I go. If it starts to shrink and go away I will know I'm on the right path. That is my "Canary in the coal mine" Ha! Ha!
Well, it's almost time to go juice some more veggies. I am juicing carrots, broccoli, kale, Turnip, Cauliflower, red pepper, red cabbage, beets with the green leaves, and I throw in a half tomato. These are all organic veggies.
I do miss chewing on something though. That is the hardest part right now. But it's one day at a time. They will add up fast.
Take care everyone.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

October 21, 2009

Well....the doctor's office called and had to cancel my appointment for tomorrow and reschedule for next Thursday. I canceled the appointment with the cancer doctor too. That appointment was for Friday. I have made up my mind anyway and am NOT going to have the surgery. I am going to stay on a very strict juicing program to keep the tumor from growing and hopefully shrinking it in time. This is a very, very strict program and I can't sway from it at all for 42 days. I have already started it. I use organic carrots, beets, which are very important, and red peppers and broccoli.
I went out today and bought lots more. Cauliflower, cabbage, turnips, tomatoes, kale etc. I really like the taste of the juice too so maybe I will be able to handle it long term.
I am adding some info from this plan that I will be on.

The RAW vegetables you should focus on are: carrots, cabbage, green asparagus, broccoli, red beets (i.e. beetroot), beet tops, cauliflower and related vegetables. Peppers also have cancer fighting substances. The spice turmeric can be added as well.

AS A MINIMUM, the vegetable juice should include:
1) Carrot juice (1 to 2 quarts/liters),
2) Beet juice (from at least 2 red beets, with their beet tops)
3) A significant amount of cruciferous vegetables including: broccoli, cabbage and cauliflower (this is for both the cancer and the critical protection of the liver)

Important Note: Beetroot can cause the urine of a person to turn red. Thus, if you take beetroot and your urine turns red, it is not necessarily blood in the urine.

A small and decreasing amount of fruit juices which contain very little glucose can be added for taste (more will be said about this issue below). Not all vegetables can be eaten raw, but the ones above can be eaten raw or juiced. You can also EAT any of these vegetables during your treatment to get bulk and fiber.

Here are just a few of the cancer cell killing nutrients (direct or indirect) in vegetables:
Raw Carrots (alpha carotene, beta carotene, Vitamin E, etc.),
Raw Broccoli (sulforaphanes/isothiocyanates),
Raw cabbage (isothiocyanates),
Green Asparagus (saponins),
Beetroot/red beets (proanthocyanidins (PAC's or OPC's)), and
Turmeric (a spice) (curcurmin).

A vegetable juice using 1 quart of carrots is the minimum level of carrots that is acceptable. Vegetable juices with 2 quarts of carrots has also been used by many people.

At least 80% or above of the vegetable juice should come from vegetables with known cancer-fighting abilities, although other vegetables are not far behind the ones I just mentioned.

* "Eating cooked food prevents the immune system from working on what is really important in keeping us superbly healthy and young in body, mind and soul. We exhaust and dissipate the body's strength by using the immune system to combat the unnatural cooked foods, chemically based supplements, pesticides, herbicides, fungicides, hormones (in meats, poultry, fish and dairy) and numerous other toxins we ingest, breathe in or absorb through our skin. When we really need the immune system to support us (as when a disease or infection develops or an injury occurs), it then lacks the strength to defend us properly."

And another one:

* "Foods to avoid: all animal products, especially proteins and fats, i.e. no cooked meat, fat, eggs, milk, etc.; all refined sugars and starches; carbohydrates; oils; eat only fresh raw fruit and vegetables, juices and extracts."

Another issue is glucose. Carrots have a high level of glucose. This glucose is readily taken in by cancer cells. When the glucose is taken in so are the nutrients in the carrots, etc. that kill cancer cells. Cancer cells steal from normal cells not only glucose, but nutrients as well.

When a person combines other foods high in glucose with the vegetable juice or fruit juice, then the cancer cells are getting glucose from multiple sources and they may be getting a lot of nutrients from these other foods. These other nutrients may not kill cancer cells as well as carrot juice and some of the other vegetable juices.

In other words, do not consume vegetables or fruits, which contain high levels of glucose, unless they are cancer-killing vegetables or fruits.

In other words, mixing these juices with foods that contain high levels of glucose DILUTES the amount of cancer-killing nutrients that get into the cancer cells, making the treatment LESS effective!!

Should a Vegetable Juice Fast and a Fruit Juice Fast Be Combined?

The question naturally arises, how about combining a good vegetable juice with a good fruit juice? The answer is - don't. Your cancer treatment should be ALL vegetable juices or ALL fruit juices. It is one or the other for the entire treatment.

As always, there are exceptions. If a cancer patient is weak, and he or she has over a year to live (if they did nothing), then the super-fruit juices (mangosteen, noni and wolfberry or gogi) can be taken during the first month of treatment, even if the person is on a vegetable juice diet.

The reason for using ONLY vegetable juices or ONLY fruit juices in the cancer treatment is that cancer-killing nutrients frequently work cumulatively. In other words, it is the cumulative effect, over 3 or 4 or 5 consecutive weeks, that makes the treatment effective.

If you break that cumulative effect, by significantly changing the person's diet or treatment, the cumulative effect could be lost.

Supercharging This Treatment

The Raw Food diet is rated as a "strong Stage III" treatment, as long as the other foods do not contain too much glucose. It can be combined with virtually any other treatment, and likewise, no other treatment that I know of interferes with the Raw Food diet. The exceptions are when the other treatments require or allow foods with too much glucose.

An alternative cancer treatment should be a complete treatment protocol. Do NOT forget to study the complete treatment protocol for Stage I, II and III cancer patients and the complete treatment protocol for Stage IV cancer patients:

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Second Thoughts About Surgery

I have been thinking a lot lately and doing a lot of research and reading other people's stories. I am now having second thoughts about surgery. I might not have it. But I'll still be talking to the surgeon on Thursday. If I have the surgery now, I'll be laid up and in in pain even without complications, all through the holidays. And there are so many complications that could happen. But I'll let you know after Thursday what I decide to do. If this cancer has spread then there is no way they can get it all unless I have the radiation and Chemo. And it will never get it all. I might live a few more months with hardly any pain or I might live a few more years. Who the hell knows. Either way it will be in God's hands.

Monday, October 19, 2009

October 19, 2009

Wasn't feeling too bad today. Went to Walmart and got stuff that I'll need for the hospital. I can't wear slippers though and can't find any that have a hard sole. So I will just have to wear my sneakers. I have all those lifts in them. So I'm more comfortable with them. Most slippers are that darn memory foam, which would make me fall over. I can't walk barefoot at all because of my left foot dropping. Years ago I loved going barefoot.

It's a good thing I realized that the doctor's office is in Rome and not Oneida. When my doctor's office called the other day they just gave me an address and said I'd be going to his office. Well, they never said the town so I just figured it was in Oneida because that's where he does the surgery I thought. My doctor had said Oneida. I looked it up on Quest Map and the address is in Rome. I'm happy about that because I know that area. That's where my younger brother lives, or did live. Not sure if he's moved permanently yet to the new place. I'm going to call him tomorrow to see if he will be around. He works there at Griffiss Air Force Base. I haven't seen him in a year and a half. He's always too busy, like everyone else that still have lives and work....

I wonder what those doctors will say when I refuse to do any radiation or Chemo? They will try their best to talk me into it. But I have made up my mind. I will not let them give me any. Maybe they won't do the operation? I'll find out on Thursday.
I wasn't bleeding as much today and I felt better and the weather was beautiful! So it was a good day.

Anxiety

I'm starting to get nervous about having surgery. From what I've been reading they always want to give you Chemo after surgery to kill off any stray cancer cells. God! I hate the thought of having all that poison dripping into my body. They don't do any localized chemo I guess. I will still probably refuse the Chemo and just let whatever happens, happen.
I have been aching more these past two days and bleeding more. At least I did have a few days where I felt good.
I'm going to get my paperwork out and rewrite my obituary in case I never make it through the surgery. And I think I better call the funeral home and get that all set up so my daughter won't have to do anything. Just in case. I was going to do that a long time ago but just never got around to it. It's like everything. We just never get around to it.
Trying to think of everything I might need while at the hospital and getting the bag packed. I bought myself a cell phone to have with me for emergencies only. I am going to take my camera to the hospital too. Maybe I'll video myself as I go through this. Of course for the first couple days I'll probably be out of it. Not sure if I will do that or not yet. I can't be without my camera! Heck. I might see something interesting. Like maybe a strange bird will land on the window..Ha! I'll probably be "seeing" things that aren't there. I wonder what pain killers do you? Oh well. just putting a few of my thoughts down.
Guess I better go to Walmart today and get a few more little items I will need. Talk to you all another time. Love you all.

Friday, October 16, 2009

October 16, 2009-Consultation

Dr. Garramone is referring me to a Colo rectal Cancer Specialist and Surgeon up in Oneida. A Dr. DelPino. His office will call me when they have an appointment set up.
He said I need surgery as soon as possible. The cancer mass is between 2 and 3 Centimeters and about 5 to 7 centimeters up into the rectum. He also said that the CEA levels ( cancer blood tests) were elevated to 12.5, which could mean that the cancer cells are already in the lymph nodes. The Liver shows 2 lesions but he's not sure because the Ultra Sound shows that they are cysts.
He said I had multiple Polyps but he only removed four and they were deeper up in the intestine.

I would be in the hospital in Oneida for at least a week. Then I have to talk to another doctor at Faxton about treatments they might want to give me afterwards. I was very adamant about not having Chemo and Dr. Garramone put it in the reports to both these doctors. If they localized treatment then maybe, but I don't want all that poison dripping through my whole system like Chris had. It kills the body. They might have to give radiation locally but I won't know what will happen till I see this Dr. Del Pino in Oneida. The first visit will be consultation.
That's all I know for now.
I'm more worried about my birds and turtle and the outdoor critters than I am myself. My turtle will sleep under a chair for a week or more at a time so I'm not worried about him. It's getting about that time where he will want to sleep anyway.
I might be able to get the woman upstairs to come down every day and feed my birds. I'm not sure yet what I will decide. I was thinking about having them all put to sleep. My Cockatiel is a constant irritant to me right now and puts a lot of stress on me.
The outdoor critters can take care of themselves, even though the squirrels might chew on the windows real bad for a while. The same lady who might watch the birds could throw out some nuts each day though, from my window, like I do. I have more stress about the critters than having the surgery. I hate the thought of lying in a dirty hospital for a week. I HATE HOSPITALS!!!!

Dr. Alberto Delpino
Colon & Rectal Surgeon, Surgeon
Male - 16 years experience
Oneida Surgical Group
357 Genesee St Ste 1
Oneida, NY 13421

Finch U Of Hs/Chicago Med Sch, North Chicago Il 60664

Cook County Hosp, Colon And Rectal Surgery; Univ Il Coll Of Med, General Surgery
Oneida Surgical Group

This is all I could find about this doctor so far.

Found this website about their group too:


http://www.oneidahealthcare.org/pdf/OneidaFinalProofSpSu09.pdf

That's all for today folks!
Dr. Garramone's office called this afternoon. I have an appointment with Dr. Delpino in Oneida next Thursday at 1:45 and then I have an appointment on Friday with Dr. Desai at Faxton Cancer Center at 2 pm. Both are for consultation before surgery.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

October 14, 2009

Had the Ultra Sound on my Liver this morning. They don't tell you anything though. All the girl said was that I still had a few cysts. I asked her and that's all she would say because it's up to the doctor to do that. So I will wait till Friday.
I got there right on time. I'm always afraid of being late. And today my road that I usually take was closed off for repairs so I had to find my way around Utica to get back on the Parkway. I'm not familiar with Utica at all. I was afraid I'd get lost but I finally made it out and onto the Parkway again. Then I get there and have to wait 50 minutes before I got in!! I hate that!
Got home at 1:00. I was so hungry because I had to fast and I hadn't eaten a thing since about 6pm the day before. Just drank some water in the morning.
After I ate lunch I was feeling okay so went over to Walmart to get some fresh veggies.
My car ran good and started right up each time. I was happy about that.
Now I'm really tired and will go to bed early.
I will know everything on Friday and will post later that day.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

October 13th-Cont.

Can't believe I forgot to put my new registration sticker on the windshield back in August. So I went out this afternoon and did it. I sure don't need to be getting in trouble for that! I checked to see if the car would start also. It makes me a little nervous because it wouldn't start the other day when I was at Agway. Thank heavens Charlie Tripple had come out at the same time. He had me pop the hood and unplugged something and re-plugged it and it started right up. He showed me what to do if it does that again. Some sensor thing. He also told me to douse it with WD-40. And if I need to buy that new part I can put it on myself he said. It only has three screws.
I feel kind of tired today but probably because I never sleep too well at night.
My mommy fox and three of the young ones are out there tonight. What bushy tails they have and so beautiful. They are growing up nicely. Hope they survive the winter and the hunters don't get them. They can be hunted and trapped right now for their fur. From October till February.
I will be leaving at 11 am tomorrow morning for my doctor's appointment in Utica.

October 13, 2009

I tried to eat some low-fat cottage cheese yesterday. Well! That was a mistake! I suffered all night. I have not eaten any dairy products in quite some time but thought I needed some more calcium. I will stick to the Calcium Citrate tabs from now on. I am having problems going to the bathroom again. Not sure why. Guess I better drink more Phsyllium Husks with water.
I have to eat light, soft foods today so everything will be clear for the Ultra Sound on my liver tomorrow morning.
Of course that is all I have been eating for the past few months. I'm so afraid to eat anything that might irritate my intestines or that spot where the cancer is because it might bleed profusely. The last time I had that happen was on Sept. 17th when I ate raw celery. I am bleeding more since the Colonoscopy but not too bad. Right now I seem to have a blockage again. But the ache in my lower bowel isn't as bad. That usually aches more after I go.

It's a rainy, gloomy day again. I had about five squirrels down here this morning so I threw out some nuts for them before the foxes show up. Last night I saw three of the young ones out there. Jim thought they'd be leaving soon but I think maybe they will stay close by all winter if they know there is food here. But I don't know if I will be able to feed them much longer . If I have to be lying in bed healing from surgery, it's going to be very hard. I feel bad about that. I can just see those squirrels up on my window peeking in at me. I hope they don't start chewing the windows all to hell. At least I don't have a lot of them any more since the foxes have been around. I also have had a cat here every day catching the Voles. So that keeps the squirrels at bay. Maybe I should hire the cat! Ha! Ha!

Monday, October 12, 2009

October 12, 2009

I feel better today than I have for a while. So I did some laundry. I got a call from the doctor's office this morning. I have to go up to Utica on Wednesday for a liver ultra sound. He wants to see if there have been any changes. I just had one last month that showed multiple cysts but they can be normal. Then I go back again on Friday morning for consultation.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

October 11, 2009

I wasn't sure if I wanted to start writing about my personal life and I'm not sure what I will write or how long, but I am going to start from today.
First a little bit about what has been going on this past year. This is going to be about my health issues.
On Thursday, the 8th, I had a Colonoscopy. My first one. I never wanted one but was forced to. For the past year I've had a lot of problems. At first I thought it was just IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome) Then I thought it was Spastic Colon. Then it felt like I had a blockage. All the while I was bleeding slightly when going. I didn't think much of it because I have bled in the past from hemorrhoids. But it got so bad that I had to stay at home for fear of not getting to the bathroom on time. I gave up all my nuts and seeds in case it was Diverticulitis. Still not going to the doctors. I hadn't been back to a doctor in five years. I am not too fond of going to a doctor anyway.
The last time I went, they told me I had signs of breast cancer. They wanted me to get a biopsy but I refused and never went back. No way did I have that I told myself. I haven't felt anything change in that breast so wasn't worried about it. I've always had dense breasts that they couldn't read well and calcification's run in the family. But not breast cancer.
So it's been five years since I've seen any doctors. now with all these problems and the heavy bouts of bleeding that I had in August, I got scared and decided to find a new doctor.

On September 2nd I went to my new primary doctor. A woman fresh out of school. But I liked her and she was very thorough. Of course she wanted me to get all these tests. Got my blood drawn and all that regular, routine stuff. She didn't feel any internal hemorrhoids but with all the pressure and aching I had I knew something was in there that didn't belong.
She tried to get me set up to have a Colonoscopy as fast as I could but I had to wait a month so she ordered a Cat Scan in the meantime. And she wanted me to have a Mammogram but I told her No! Then she asked if I'd be okay with an Ultra Sound so I agreed. It was more for my own curiosity to see if anything had changed in my breasts.
Two days later I woke up to some bad pains in my upper right chest, behind my ribs, which seemed to move from front to back. It wouldn't go away so I called the doctor and she had me come right in. She did an Ultra Sound and found I had a Gall Stone and also multiple cysts on my liver and Fibroid Tumors on my Uterus. Now I was really a mess!
She also did an EKG but thank heavens that was okay. My blood pressure was 106/60 that day. No high blood pressure at least! I thought that was kind of low but they say it's okay.
She told me that my urine test showed I was dehydrated and I was also very anemic at that time. So I got some Iron pills and started drinking water like crazy. I looked up everything on the Internet I could on Gallstones and made sure I stuck to a good diet, even though I wasn't eating anything course or rough that would irritate my intestines and make me bleed. I was on mostly soft foods by now. I started taking Physillium Husk Powder and it helped tremendously and for the first time I actually was starting to go better.
I have had no more pains from the Gallstone. I got to feeling stronger after taking iron and drinking all that water but that terrible aching in my lower bowels would not go away. I got the Cat Scan but nothing was said about anything new. Just confirmed what she had already told me. I also had the Ultra Sound on my breasts and they couldn't find anything. So that was good news.

I finally got in to see the Digestive Disease Doctor last Tuesday. They scheduled my Colonoscopy for Thursday. Boy! That Gatorade with the Miralax was sure hard to drink. It was the Gatorade I didn't like. I had to drink all 64 ounces within two hours but it took me almost three. The first 32 ounces went down okay but the second was real hard to do. But I did it and I was up all night.
I actually felt good being all emptied out!
My sister picked me up at 11:15 AM so I'd get to the hospital by noon. It was about a half hour away.
I got the paperwork all signed and then they put me into this little cubicle where I had to undress and get into one of those horrible hospital gowns. That room was full of cubicles with people waiting to go in and some who had already had it done. Some were being wheeled out because they were ready to go home. I was looking at them to see if they looked pained or groggy or anything. They seemed okay.
My sister left. I didn't want her to wait. Besides, my daughter was going to pick me up when it was over.
So there I was, lying there in that bed, waiting. They came and put an IV into my right arm. Something that said sodium on it. Not sure what it was. But that was dripping slowly into my arm as I waited and waited for my turn.
I'd see some being wheeled back to their little cubicle. Then I'd hear a nurse calling them to see if they were okay. They acted groggy for a while. I was wondering how long I'd be that way. My sister had me thinking that I'd be unable to function for the rest of the day, just because her husband was that way after his.
Finally it was my turn. They wheeled my bed into the tiny room and left me there alone for a few minutes. I looked around and could see the instruments that would be used. Yep! There was that long thing sticking into a box like contraption. Yikes! Was that going to be put inside me? I guess so. The nurse came in and she was messing around with the computer screen, getting my name and age etc on there. I was wishing I could have watched the whole procedure but they were putting me out. I did have a choice but thought I'd better be knocked out so I don't cringe or move when he started putting that scope up me. The nurse had me lay on my left side. Then the doctor came in. A Dr. Garamone. Very nice guy. He was talking to me for a minute and the next thing I knew I was waking up back in my cubicle. I had been wheeled in at 1:30. It was now 3:15 pm. Never felt a thing. I felt okay. I knew I had to pass gas because I heard the nurses telling the others to do that. I had no problem but when I did I felt something wet. I was bleeding. Yuck. I got a cloth and cleaned myself up and then got dressed and went to the bathroom. I was slightly wobbly but with my crutches I got there okay. Wasn't like my sister thought I'd be. The nurse came over and took blood from my left arm. More tests I guess.
I sat in the chair and waited for my daughter to get there. They had called her and she was on her way. She got out of work at 3:30 and then had to pick up her two girls from daycare. They wanted to see Grandma. She would wait outside by the front entrance while they wheeled me out. On the way home I did feel as if I was going to puke. My daughter stopped and got a bucket out of the back to give just in case. But it went away. Little Jessi kept asking me questions all the way home. Why are you sick Grandma?? Are you going to puke in that bucket? I was so glad to get back home. The kids came in for a few minutes but then had to leave to go pick up their brother.
Before the doctor left he came over and sat down to talk to me. He got straight to the point and said that I had a cancerous mass in my rectum and that he'd be seeing me next week after all the tests results came back. I expected it. He removed four Polyps also.
Now I am just waiting to see what my options will be. I am hoping they will be able to cut out the bad areas. I don't even care if I have to have a Colostomy. But I do know one thing for sure. I will NEVER have Chemo or Radiation. I saw what it did to my sister. She died on Oct. 16. 2006 from Colorectal Cancer. She was in stage four before she was diagnosed. It had already gone to her liver.
So you all are wondering why the heck I didn't get a Colonoscopy right away if I knew my sister had died from that. Well, it's because I refused to believe that I'd ever get the same thing. And I never would if I hadn't had all my problems this past year. And yes, I kept putting it off, thinking it was nothing that serious till I started bleeding real heavy. Then I knew.
I will write more when I go back to the doctor.